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Nov. 22nd, 2010 02:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
person4This year is going to be my first time in charge of making Thanksgiving Dinner. I've made turkey dinners before, but just roasting a turkey is different from it being Thanksgiving.
I've been sitting here thinking about whether there's anything left that I need for it, and I just realized that I never learned my mom's recipe for stuffing. She only ever made it for Thanksgiving, and last year we were in the hospital for it and the past several years before that instead of having a small holiday with just our immediate family we'd all go to my aunt and uncles for a big extended family affair where my aunt made her own stuffing, so even though I know that I hung around watching her make it once or twice it's been so long that I can't be sure that I remember everything that went into it even though it was a simple one.
It's such a small thing, but it's hit harder than anything has in weeks in reminding me that she's really gone for good and I've missed my chance of ever learning anything that I didn't think to ask about while she was here.
I'm thinking about just looking up a recipe for some type of stuffing that's completely different than the one she'd make, because if I try to imitate hers and get it wrong I think it'd make her absence stick out a lot more (not that it won't anyway, but...) than if I say "This year I'm trying out wild rice and dried cherry (or whatever) stuffing, tell me what you think!"
I've been sitting here thinking about whether there's anything left that I need for it, and I just realized that I never learned my mom's recipe for stuffing. She only ever made it for Thanksgiving, and last year we were in the hospital for it and the past several years before that instead of having a small holiday with just our immediate family we'd all go to my aunt and uncles for a big extended family affair where my aunt made her own stuffing, so even though I know that I hung around watching her make it once or twice it's been so long that I can't be sure that I remember everything that went into it even though it was a simple one.
It's such a small thing, but it's hit harder than anything has in weeks in reminding me that she's really gone for good and I've missed my chance of ever learning anything that I didn't think to ask about while she was here.
I'm thinking about just looking up a recipe for some type of stuffing that's completely different than the one she'd make, because if I try to imitate hers and get it wrong I think it'd make her absence stick out a lot more (not that it won't anyway, but...) than if I say "This year I'm trying out wild rice and dried cherry (or whatever) stuffing, tell me what you think!"