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[person4]

My mom died an hour and a half after writing that earlier entry.

Part of me is glad that she went in June, even though I wish she could have held on until the end of it. My brothers' birthday is next month, and I wouldn't want their 'Hey, my birthday's coming up this month!' excitement every year from here on out tainted by the depression of 'The anniversary of mom's death is coming up this month.'

Even though my dad's still alive, I feel like I've just been orphaned. She was always my real parent, my dad's work schedule had me see him so rarely growing up that he was more like some random person who was around sometimes, even though I know that my personality mostly takes after him. Once they got divorced he pretty much dropped out of my life completely, last year when his mother died was the first time I'd seen him in years.

Comments

[skylark97.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry for you loss.

[haku-kaen.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It still hasn't really sunk in all the way; the dog was just barking over my aunt and uncle getting here and the first thing I did was worry about it disturbing mom.

[sandoz-iscariot.livejournal.com]

*offers hugs* I'm very sorry for your loss.

[haku-kaen.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's still just a real shock, even though it'd been a long time coming.