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Sep. 10th, 2006 06:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
person4...Ignore everything that was here, if you read it already. I just went to check up on my guinea pig, and it's died since I put up the first version of this post.
Jesus, I feel so horrible. If I hadn't been focusing all my attention on worrying about my cat, who's been getting better since Tuesday and doesn't really need my concern, I might've noticed something was wrong with him in time to save him.
You know, if someone had asked before today, I would've said he would've been the best of the pets for something like this to happen to, because I've never thought of him as family the way the dog or the cats are. And maybe that's true, because god knows how much more broken up I'd be if one of them died because I was too busy paying attention to something else to do more than make sure they had food and water in the morning and at night, but now I can't stop myself from crying. I failed him so much, he relied on me for everything since I took him from my brother when he started neglecting him, and now he'd dead because for this past week I've been almost as awful as person as my brother was.
Jesus, I feel so horrible. If I hadn't been focusing all my attention on worrying about my cat, who's been getting better since Tuesday and doesn't really need my concern, I might've noticed something was wrong with him in time to save him.
You know, if someone had asked before today, I would've said he would've been the best of the pets for something like this to happen to, because I've never thought of him as family the way the dog or the cats are. And maybe that's true, because god knows how much more broken up I'd be if one of them died because I was too busy paying attention to something else to do more than make sure they had food and water in the morning and at night, but now I can't stop myself from crying. I failed him so much, he relied on me for everything since I took him from my brother when he started neglecting him, and now he'd dead because for this past week I've been almost as awful as person as my brother was.